“When we get up in the morning, we ask God to direct our lives that day…We do this instead to remind ourselves of our commitment each day.”
Joe McQ, The Steps We Took
For a long time I spent my morning prayer time asking for things and asking for God’s help in doing things my way. It’s only recently that I began spending my morning prayer time trying to understand what God wants from me and asking Him to guide me in the ways He wants me to go. By spending my morning prayer time this way I remind myself of my previous promises to God and I recommit myself to Him.
The mornings after a rough day test this resolve. The pornography addict in me does not want to be committed to God; he wants to take a temporary leave of absence from the Room of Grace and look at pornography online. On other mornings a part of me doesn’t think I can go on. I want to throw in the towel. I need a time of commitment in the morning to remind myself that I am sober another day despite the fact that I’ve wanted to quit in the past. I can make it another day, with God’s help, and to get God’s help I must commit myself to Him daily.
It’s not that God won’t help me without this commitment, it’s that He can’t help me because I get in the way without this daily commitment. I get distracted with choosing what to wear to work, what I plan to do at work, what my family expects from me, bills I have to pay, phone calls I need to make, fears about the coming baby and the loss of our house…Before anything else happens in the day I’ve got to remind myself who I belong to and who my Master is. Maybe other people don’t need these daily reminders, but I do. I’ve lived long enough without them to know the danger I risk when I don’t commit myself to God each and every day.