One of our readers challenged me today to reflect on those moments when’s God’s love and majesty overwhelmed me in the past. While I’m of the mind that disciples of Jesus Christ should always be learning and growing in faith, this reader’s point is well taken: We should not stray from that which first caused us to fall in love with Jesus.
Today I’d like to share a journal entry I wrote the day God changed my life forever. I’ve only shared some of these details with the people closest to me up until now, so I hope you’ll be kind. There may be statements that you need clarification on; if so, feel free to ask questions.
Without further ado:
April 14, 2010
“OK, I can’t believe I haven’t written this down yet. I made a journal entry in another book about connecting with God, but didn’t write down the 2nd, potentially more amazing story.
As I was riding the bus home and looking out the window, I was struck, as if by lightning, with the sudden knowledge that there was a plan to this world. That things are laid out according to His plan. I felt it so strongly that I could almost see his pattern laid over the scene I was driving past. It was unbelievable. It still is unbelievable, and I’m writing this five days later.
I also, during those moments, had a tremendous calm settle over me, and I felt the hand of God on my chest, with Him saying to me, “Be calm. This world is ordered according to My will. Everything is as it should be.” In that moment I KNEW that God was real. I was no longer taking it on faith. I have been searching so long for this feeling, I can hardly believe it’s finally happened. As sure as this journal book is red, as sure as I’m writing with a pen at this very moment, I KNOW THAT GOD IS. Here’s the other revelation I had five days ago.
God IS everywhere and in all things.
You see Him when you connect with another soul. This is why Jesus said, “When two or more are gathered in my name, I am there…” So that each can look into the eyes of God. You can be shown the way, but each man can only save himself. I have been given a gift today. Thank you, God.
Oh, and one more thing (I was already starting to forget!) about that moment…the calm was so pervasive and intense that I remember thinking, ‘This is what the great war heroes, the great heroes of life, must have been feeling when they did whatever heroic act they did.’ Because the calm was unbelievable, the knowledge that there was a God and that the world is ordered according to his plane, made me feel like I could do anything. And I mean that.”
Our reader was correct: I should never forget this moment. I should never forget the day God reached into my life to break my constant fascination with myself and wake me up to the reality of Himself.